pack up

as I watch my closet and look to my scrubs suits. I guess I have to pack up and keep it in case I might come back to AKU, but I'm hoping.
In this very day I accept the fact I'm no longer part of this so called family. so I have to keep the thing that makes me happy.

So hello pedia ER. sigh! first love never dies! wohooo!

the real world talk.

you thought you want to go back. back where it all started but then this tiny voice or feeling you better not go back there. Honestly, it was fun there at the same time it was sure was hell. looking back it was fun there. 

I honestly think I don't like to stay there for that long.... 

First, I don't want to have this long term relationship with the patients.. same patients same bonding if we go ---- more emotional heartbreak. I choose people to be in my life. I don't tend to be in their life or mine, no offense meant there.

Second, the knowledge is limited. after mastering some skills for how many months it sure will take off your the real world of nursing,. same procedure, same people. - unhealthy professionalism, no professional growth.

and lastly - the system sucks! I tell you! go figure "kung ano ang puno sya din ang bunga."

sabi ko nga medyo boring na doon kung magtagal pa ako. 

and sometimes I don't like the "other" people there. 

But I was thinking of  waste of experience, waste of time and money - the uniform, the shoes. hahaha! Well,  what the heck I think it was a taste of just another experience so that the life here will not be boring.

I'm back the area I'm really really want in the first place. the area that for sure in my mind and heart it was my very first love.

I asked God for guidance for today and here forth. now, off to duty. 

sana meron pa ganito

i want these phones..

 nokia C3-01

 Blackberry Pearl 9105

... Nokia x2 - 00 ... yet no SMS Threaded features.. hish!


I'm trying to look for a phone that has SMS threaded view, dual sim, with camera flash led light BUT ALPHANUMERIC keypads!

anyone!? please nokia, invent one!

Pasalubong

the nerve wreaking decision that I will be making soon .... or sooner. Heck, I spend whole month  in malls and stores just looking and searching for nice "Pasalubong" for family and friends.
Before that I miss make a list to those people who are deserving to get Pasalubong from me,

Of course, I'll make list of wants and needs to my own family.  then people who were there who from the start who help me through all these. I have a lots of relatives and friends you know, but I will give to those people who are deserving.

so the list of people.... maybe soon... I think... but the pasalubong... wait... how about the ideas goes now? right?

So this time I want pasalubong that is light and easy to carry.
so first thing first!
tarhas, ethnic cloths, perfumes, lotions, shades, watches and t-shirts.....

But I have the idea for my dear brother...

  so far... idea pa lang lahat. hahaha!

please shut up!

Lesson Learned

Never talk and talk again.
Never Blab blab things
Never again!

Lesson Learned

Sometimes I feel like I need to stop being me. . . .

I need to get out of this city. On bad days (like this one), it’s a physical ache.
I’m not sure if that makes any sense to you, but in my head, it makes perfect sense.
If I’m going to feel lonely anyway, I’d rather it be because I’m actually physically alone in another place. 

I think that might feel comparatively less pathetic than feeling lonely in a city where you’re acquainted with hundreds of people but don’t really, truly know anybody beyond ones and zeros.